You Can’t Fix Everything

 

NubleLighthouse
Cape Neddick Lighthouse, York, Maine

You will keep him in perfect peace,
Whose mind is stayed on You,
Because he trusts in You.

This verse became ever apparent to me, some 28 plus years ago.  My first-born lay in an incubator attached to all sorts of life saving apparatuses.  She was a preemie baby.  I had stayed diligently by her “capsule” of a bed for days, but atlas, there came a time when I had to go home-85.6 miles away.  That night I lay in bed, wide awake, thinking of all things that could go wrong-things that could take my baby away from me.  As I lay there in the shadows, my mother’s heart ached to be by her side.  Maybe, I surmised, my presence could some how-some way, ward off the bad things and my baby would be safe.  I felt if I could only control the situation, all would be well; and so, there I lay, an hour and a half’s drive away, plotting ways keep control.  The night was dark, from a waning moon, and the shimmer of the stars-outside my bedroom window-caught my eye, mesmerizing me with all of God’s Glory.   In that moment all thoughts of control slipped away, and a gentle voice seemed to whisper…”Look at all of these I have created…I will, also take care of Beth.” Perfect peace flooded my soul and I was finally able to “let go” and fall into the sleep, I, so desperately needed.

Press the fast forward button to “Boston 2016,” and notice the  beautiful women, my daughter, sitting in her own office.  These days, Beth, with a Master’s Degree in Psychology,  cares for every one of her clients that sit upon her couch.  To say the least, I am one proud mama!

Last week, I received a phone call from Beth, in which she told me of some not-so-good-news, and immediately I became a scared mama of 22, plotting and trying to “fix” the broken things in her baby’s life. However, it wasn’t long until my Father, in His same gentle voice, whispered, “…Remember…remember those stars…it’s okay…I got this one too…”

Isaiah 26: 3-“You will keep [her] in perfect peace, whose mind in stayed on You, because [she] trusts in You-” … is just as true as it was 28 years ago.

No, I can’t fix everything, but I know Who can.

BethMaine
Beth standing in front of Cape Neddick Lighthouse.
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7 thoughts on “You Can’t Fix Everything

  1. When you see what came of your first uncontrollable situation (such a beautiful daughter), perhaps you can hope for more of the same. Stay strong.

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