But…I Really Want to Eat It

The Characteristics That Most People Eat Sugar, You One of Them

This morning I got up, stepped on the scale and said, “Why is this happening to me!”

I have been very diligent in exercising.  Most days I run/walk 5 miles a day.  My weekly goal is to do at least 25 miles per week.

Since I’ve been on this regime I’ve lost a tad over 20 pounds.  The weight seemed to drop fairly easy until now.  Now I’m stuck and have been for several weeks.

My weight remains at a certain number, give or take a pound, and it’s frustrating.  So, this is why I yelled at the scale this morning.

It didn’t respond…it just kept flashing that damn number at me.  I swear when I look at it I picture a Cheshire cat cloaked in its evil grin.  I think it’s possessed.

For my morning meditations, I’ve been following Our Daily Bread Devotional Journal.  Each day a passage of scripture is given followed by a short prose by that day’s author.  Sometimes I can relate to the author’s point of view, and other times, though I may agree, it just doesn’t seem to apply to my situation at the moment.  Usually, when this occurs I can at least find something within the passage of scripture that speaks to me.

Today was one of those days.

The author penned a story about a newly married couple who chose to forgo the usual reception, and instead, invited their guests to help them hand out a truckload of food to the needy.  As I read it I thought, “Wow, that’s pretty awesome!”   And then I thought, “How does this apply to me?”

Well, the answer was simple…in Galatians 5:13 we are called to “…serve one another in love.” (NLT) I do try to make this a part of my life.

However, as I read the scripture passage something else jumped off the page and landed smack between my eyes

What was it?

Well to answer…we need to go back to the subject of the evil entity, my scale.

It was NOT cooperating with me!  I bust my tail, faithfully, and still, the number stays the same.  I try telling myself, “Something’s wrong with it,” but in my mind, I know it speaks the truth.

Still, I wondered…why?  Why God…why can’t I get past that number?

And then…God answered…

“…I advise you to live according to your new life in the Holy Spirit…then you won’t be doing what your sinful nature craves…follow the Holy Spirit’s leading in every  part of your life.”

To paraphrase…

“You’ve been so disciplined in your physical exercise…now try applying that same discipline into controlling what, and how much you eat.  Rely on my Spirit…he’s always there to help you.”  

I have a problem with eating at night while watching tv.  I’m good during the day but find myself grazing at night.

So, I’ve decided to try it God’s way.   From this day forward, my goal is to eat nothing after dinner…unless it is something healthy like fruits or vegetables.  I will try to be disciplined to follow this, but I’m sure there’ll times when I’m tempted beyond belief to eat the cupcake.  And that’s when I’ll have to rely upon the Holy Spirit for help.  He can and will give me strength during my weakness.  However, I must ask for his help, and I must implement his help into my life.


Hopefully, the next time I post a photo of the evil entity below, it will be grinning back a new and lower number.

Let the journey begin!


June 7, 2018








The Luxury of His Power

A Conversation with God 8/8/2016


Me:  God, I’m so tired of looking fat.  me and rm  glasses

God:  Talk to me about it.

Me:  Well, most of the time I feel okay about it and then I catch a reflection of myself in a mirror or a store-front glass…I see myself as others must see me… and then, just like that [snaps fingers] my whole mood changes and I feel bad the rest of the day.  I look so ugly.

God:  You are My dear child…made in My image so there is no way possible you could ever be ugly.  I have children who’ve been burnt with fire, scarred with acid, malformed from a bullet or deformed from birth, and not a single one is ugly.  They are My precious children and are beautiful in My sight.

Me:  I’m sorry Lord…I guess what I’m really trying to say is I don’t feel good about myself.

God:  Don’t be sorry, My child for such are the feelings of humans.  Feeling bad about yourself and being ugly are two different things.  As I said before, no child of mine is ugly for I have a purpose for each and everyone.  I put them exactly where they are-in life- to be an inspiration and a light to all those around.  They are my vessels filled with my Spirit.

(God pauses…)

You, Lisa, are My vessel and I actually live inside your physical form.  I can use you to change the world if you would be but my willing.

Me:  Yes, Lord, I will be your vessel; please use me as you see fit.

God:  Lisa…

Me:  Yes, Lord?

God:  I makes me sad when you feel bad about yourself.  I want you to feel like the beautiful creation you are.

Me:  I’m sorry Lord…I don’t want to make you sad.

God:  Oh my child, don’t be sorry.  Come to me and let me help you with these feelings.  I am always eager to help my children.

Me:  Oh God, I so need your help!  I’ve tried over and over again to eat better and to exercise but I always…ALWAYS…screw it up!

God:  Any task you undertake is a journey of many steps, and like all journeys there will be ups and downs, and curves in the road with bumps and potholes scattered about.  And know this, Lisa, no matter how hard you try, eventually you’re bound to stumble over some of these obstacles.  That will always be the case as long as you inhabit your physical body.

Me:  Well…that’s kind of depressing, Lord.

God:  The key is to realize you are MORE than the physical.  You have the luxury of My Power  inside of you.  My Power, that has changed and recreated my children through the centuries.  Once, this Power, raised my only Son from death and the grave.  YOU, Lisa…YOU have access to the very same Power!

Me:  Wow, Lord, when you put it that way I feel like a superhero!

God:  And so you are!  The key is to tap into that Power.

Me:  But…how Lord?  Please tell me how…

God:  Through prayer and faith in Me.  You see, Lisa…the truth of the matter is this:  You will fall and you will “mess-up,” as you say, and when you do your first instinct will be to berate, kick yourself and entertain thoughts of giving up.  Don’t listen to these lies! Instead, say My Name.  There is Power in My Name!  Forgive yourself, call out to Me and I will help you up; and then press on.  Press on and don’t look back!

Me:  Thank you, Lord.  You make me feel strong…You make me believe I can do it!

God:  You can do it and I will help you!

God:  And…Lisa…

Me:  Yes, Lord?

God:  When you go to Planet Fitness today… (God pauses and winks)…kick butt…


I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.  Philippians 4:13

 …forgetting those things which are behind and reaching forward to those things which are ahead, 14 I press toward the goal for the prize of the upward call of God in Christ Jesus.  Philippians 3:13-14

The effective, fervent prayer of a righteous man avails much.  James 6:16

“Daughter, your faith has made you well. Go in peace, and be healed of your affliction.”  Mark 5:34

 But we have this treasure in earthen vessels, that the excellence of the power may be of God and not of us.  II Corinthians 4:7

“My grace is sufficient for you, for My strength is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore most gladly I will rather boast in my infirmities, that the power of Christ may rest upon me… For when I am weak, then I am strong.  II Corinthians 12:9-10

But those who wait on the Lord
Shall renew their strength;
They shall mount up with wings like eagles,
They shall run and not be weary,
They shall walk and not faint.  Isaiah 40:31